Too much

I've spent too much time idling.
So potent.
Just look at how I succumb to temptations so easily.

Boys Before Flowers
What's next?
All those time spent chasing those dramas.
Essay writings for scholarship/study loan/bursary applications have been put on hold.

'It's okay, deadline's still weeks away.'
How selfish of I to have overlook all these stuffs
Which is gonna matter - BIG time for my family.

Mama's words finally got me awake today.
Hello? I'm the eldest sibling.
Be more sensible please.

And I realised.
My decisions sway. Easily.
Looks like I'm gonna weigh out my options again.
Between my family, my interest, my abilities and myself.
I need a firmer foothold.
Like a strong tree, standing tall amidst the storm.

A good thing that internship starts next week.
At least chances of idling is lower.